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A New Year

2011-12-31T14:28:00.003+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!! :-D

31/12/2011

2011-12-31T13:40:00.003+08:00

My Favourite Site: Tumblr.

Assalamualaikum and hello. :-)

Can't believe today is the last day of 2011 and less than 24 hours to go until 2012. I don't know why but I feel reluctant to leave 2011. Honestly, 2011 is not really a good year for me. There's a few good things than bad things. I cry a lot than smiling. Of course, I am smiling because it hides how hurt you are but one day, I met someone. Someone who I can trust. Someone who I can talk to for hours. Someone I want I love. That someone is you, Faidz. :-)

And I always try my best to put a smile on my face.

Well, I guess I want to do a little bit of flashback starting from February until December.

February: I guess most of my friends knew very well that February is a very special month for me and filled with a lot of good but not good memories at the same time. This is a month where my partner, Tash and I went to Seoul, South Korea. It's a dream came true. Why? Because back in 2010, I really want to go to Seoul so badly and when my teacher told me that super shocking news about me going to Korea. I was super duper happy. Wrapped in palpable happiness, I told my parents about this. Hehehehe. :-)

March: Well, not a good month for me. I didn't do well in my first test. Yes. :-( I remember we made a video clip because we were in charge of the morning assembly and the song Pray stucked in my head for days. Lol! I remember Teacher Bella asked us to make a scrapbook during our school holidays and I went to Shabby Chic to buy things that I needed and getting an A for it! Hehehehe. Really satisfied.

April: This is really unexpected month for me! Someone special sent a friend request on me on Facebook. Hehehehehe. And this is the start of our friendship until June and then until today. :-D

May: This is a very special month since I turned 16. Received a few gifts from my friends and so many birthday greetings! Thank you guys and thank you Sayang. :-)

June: Officially Together. ♥ And I sat for my June O-level exam. I took PoA, Malay and English. Satisfied with my PoA and Malay but not with my English. :-( Really hope I'll get a better grade this time! Amin. :-)

July: His Birthday. ♥ And I don't remember clearly what is going on back in July. Hehehehe. I didn't write it down in my diary. Hehehehehe.

August: I hate this month. HAHAHAHAHA. But yes, I am serious. This is the hardest month for me. :-)

September: This is Hari Raya month! Not really enjoyed my Hari Raya though. :-) Well, I was quite satisfied with myself during P.E time because I managed to do 17 push-up and sit-up! Hehehehe. My friends tried to make me laugh but I tried my best not to laugh and my friends even said "Go JGS! Go JGS!" Lol! Oh dear~ Such a good time. :-)

October and November: O-level Month! But I can never forget 6th November easily and thanks to my favourite girl, Goh Fui Tze. :-P Hehehehe. Thanks Moi for helping Al and me as well. Lol! ♥

December: Sleeping month for my brain. Hahahaha. Well, I need a break from books and went out with my friends a few times but really wish to spend more time with someone else. Yes. With you. You know who you are. :-) Well, honestly, my December is boring. Most of the times, my eyes are glued to the computer screen and phone. I hardly read books and I just finished reading The Body Farm by Patricia Cornwell, my favourite author! :-)

I wish to go paragliding someday. Hahahaha. Well, wish to do it someday! ♥

Such a long post to end my 2011. Hehehehe. Enjoy reading it and I love all my readers and my followers and my friends!

2107 ♥

Now playing: A Thousand Years by Christina Perri.

This Is All So New

2011-12-23T12:23:00.001+08:00

My favourite picture. :-P

Feel free to follow me on Tumblr. :-)

Sayang, I ♥ you. :-$

Light Blue Owl

2011-12-23T11:41:00.002+08:00

Hello.

I am back. I miss updating my Blog and I know someone out there miss reading my post(s). I hardly update my other social sites lately because I am too lazy to boot up my PC and I have no mood to update all my social accounts.

But today, I am going to update all of them because of this special guy in my life. You know who you are. :-)

First of all, I had been woken in very late hours of morning by a dream. Well, I can't remember it but I know it was an unpleasant dream. Next, I went straight to my Study Room and boot up my PC and watched a video from someone's Tumblr. Hahahaha. Well, weird, isn't it? It is a very sweet video and yes, thanks to that video as well. :-)

I had been through a lot for the last few weeks including yesterday afternoon. No I but We. Yes, we had been through a lot. A lot of fights and choices between us but everything is fine right now. Yes, Alhamdulillah. :-) Oh God, I know my friends are reading this. Guys, I hope you won't ask me about this in school or anywhere. Whatever I wrote in my blog stays in my blog unless you are too curious about my personal life, you can ask me - personally but not via Formspring. :-)

School holidays - so far - I find it not that enjoyable. Last December was enjoyable because I went to K.K but this year, I just stay at home and went out with my friends less than 5 times. Yes. I've got nothing to share with my friends when I am going back to school next year. Speaking of school, it won't be the same anymore and I am no longer a STPRI students but I am proud to be one of the STPRIans. Really proud to be one. :-)

I wanna take this opportunity (Emkay Syaz) to say something to my friend, Fatimah. I am not sure if you're reading this or not but I hope you do. Well, I want to thank you for being my friends within 5 years even though we were only in the same class for 3 years - 2007, 2010 and 2011. You are such a good friend and a good sister as well. I know we had a couple of fights but still... You are one of the best friends I've ever known. I know you're going to PTEK next year and we had talk about our future (studies) and I wish you - good luck for next year. You're taking tough subjects but I know you can do it! Please don't forget me Timberlake. Hahahaha. And thanks for helping me to go through my 2011. Thanks Fatimah Md. Suhaimi. ♥ (And you know I can be dramatic sometimes when it comes to writing a story. :-P)

I am not sure what to talk about except someone I dislike is going to the same school with me next year and I am not happy with that but I am happy at the same time. Lol. It's not like we're going to be in the same class. I feel like the end of December holidays comes too quickly. Less than 10 days until 2012. I hope 2012 is going to be much better than 2011. At the moment - well - no, I have been a Tumblr addict since early 2011. Hehehehe.

2011 has been a great and bitter year. I have been through a lot. I don't really love this year but this year is really unexpected. First, I went to South Korea. Second, I am unaware of the arrival of this person. ♥ Third, my June. Hehehehe. :-) And thanks to my PoA teacher as well. To anyone out there who is reading my post(s), I just want to say Happy New Year and good luck!

P/s: I ♥ you, 2107.

2107

2011-12-15T11:07:00.002+08:00

Hello.

I am not strong enough to talk about this but this is the only way to make you understand and you know who you are. First of all, I am truly sorry about my pasts. I am sorry. I know I didn't and never shared too much about my pasts and you found out from my old posts and then you jumped into conclusions. I just want to say I don't live in my pasts anymore. I don't want to look back and I do not wish to remember.

Yes. I admit I deleted all my posts in 2008. I was only 13 at that time and I was heart broken. I hate that person so I decided to delete anything related to that person but maybe I could erase everything from here but I still have all the bitter memories. I told you everything last night and I wish we can go back to the 'old' us but today I don't know what's going on with you. You didn't reply my texts. I tried to call you but the line was busy.

I don't have any idea where are you right now. I am not sure if you're still here or there already. You give me a week to win back your trust and here I am - trying to win back your trust just because you jumped into irrelevant conclusions in the first place after reading my previous posts. Now, ask yourself. It's our fault actually. You just asked me about it last night and I explained it to you but today? You're moody again and I don't know what is going on or maybe you're quite busy. I am not angry at you. I am just upset seeing you like this.

Sayang, I really love you. (Yes. I don't care if my friends read this post and I am sure - very sure they have no idea what on earth am I talking about.) You are part of my life and we've been through a lot. Yes. A lot. I have been through a lot. I just want you to understand me. To stay with me and to be with me all the time. I am sorry and I mean it.

I trust you and I still trust you even after what had happened in August.

Sincerely,

The girl from the Maths class.

Promise Me, You'll Always Be In Reach

2011-12-10T16:14:00.002+08:00

Hello! I feel like blogging today. Actually, I decided to delete my blog but I know I can't. I've been blogging for years. This is a place where I can type more than 140 characters and where I can express and let out everything. I love my blog but I've decided - when I reach 18 years old, I'm going to delete and I know someone is going to miss reading it. I'm sorry. :-)

We're now in the month of December and less than 30 days to go until January 2012 and I don't know what's my resolution for 2012. All I know is I want 2012 to be a good year for me. Amin. :-)

I'm going to miss high school but yes, when there's a Hello there will always a Good bye. I'm not ready to say good bye to STPRI. Spending 5 years with girls and the next 2 years, I'm going to spend with boys and girls. I just hope everything is going to be fine. I miss someone. Someone I love. Hehehehe. I know I seldom post about him but I think I'm going to talk about him today.

When I first met him, I never thought he's going to be part of my life. Yes. Never thought about it. Back in April, he sent me a friend request. I was quite shock actually since we never talked. I accepted the request and we got to know each other. OMG. Actually, I'm quite shy to talk about this. Heheheh. But in the end (by June), we're officially together! I was so happy over the moon. I had been single for years and I met him and I really love him. Yes. I love you so much.

Knowing him. Being with him. Talking to him. Holding his hand. Yes. Those things make me happy. Very happy and I just want to be with him. I just can't describe how much I love him. :-D

Erm... I think that's all. I know it's quite a boring (Oh No) and short post. I'm in my holidays mood and I only went out twice during my holidays which is quite sad but it's alright. :-)

2107, I love you so much. :-)

Now playing: Lightweight by Demi Lovato.

♥

STPRI :')

2011-11-19T14:13:00.015+08:00

Learning in STPRI for 5 years - positive avalanche of bittersweet memories. I just want to thank all the teachers that had been teaching me for 5 years. I am going to miss this school but I am happy to get to study in STPRI. :-)

Oh dear, memories keep on running through my head like a short video - with endless loop. :-)

Top: Picture caption: STPRI Gang. :-P Hahahahahaha!!!

Below: Tash brought Choco Fudge cake to school! Thanks Tash! I hate you! :-D

That's me and Mr. Pang. Hi Sir, I am not sure if you are still reading my blog or not but I just want to thank you for teaching me PoA within 2 years. Dealing with my attitude and motivate and giving me advices, I know it's not easy but I thank you for helping me. I know I'll never thank you enough but I just want to say you're the best! Sorry for being such a cry baby sometimes. Hehehe. I am not sure if I am going to take Accounting again in sixth form but I really enjoyed studying PoA even though I seldom got it balanced! :-P :-D

Taken from Mun's Instagram. I hope you don't mind! Hehehehe. I just want to say you are cute, cool, pretty and awesome! :-D

Top: The 5 computer students and our teacher, Teacher Azrinah. I am going to miss the 4 of them! Belle, Maya, Tash and Zul. Oh dear. They are just the best and learning computer won't be the same anymore without the four of them! :')

Below: Wafaa', Shaf, Durriah and Rai with Mr. Leong, our Physics teacher. I deleted 2 pictures of Tash and I with Mr. Leong because too dark. D: But anyway, thanks to Mr. Leong for helping us back in January and early February. :-)

Top left: Durr and Mr. Pang. Omg. Look at his face. Hehehehe. :-D

The picture on the left (middle) is Munirah. We're not really close but I find her amazing and pretty! I love her pictures especially her current Avatar on Twitter! :-)

Top right is Durriah and me. Oh dear, I looked so different. 0_0 and bottom right is Fui Tze and me. The photo was taken - while I was waiting for mom. Oh bottom left is Aeny! :-)

The picture on top: Our Chemistry teacher and us. She's the best. Hehehehe and the picture below is Cikgu Halimah and I. Thanks for teaching us Cikgu and sharing a lot of stories and experiences with us. :-)

Aww... Those 2 pictures above: Teacher Rabiatul (correct spelling, right?) and Miss Sha. Hehehe. Actually, I cried when I told her I wanted to take a picture with her. Thank you teacher for helping us with our project and gave us a few ideas about our work! :-)

That's Fui Tze and Aeny Alisah! Yes. Aeny loves cherry, I guess. Hehehehe. Fui Tze had been hijacking my phone and taking a lot of pictures of her. Lol. She even set a picture of Aeny as my wallpaper. Hahaha. Omg. I am going to miss Fui Tze! Dear Fui Tze, thanks for being there for me through "thick and thin" and always listen to my stories and helped me to work out my problems. Thanks Fui Tze! To Aeny, thanks for being my partner in crime sometimes. :-P Hoping to see the 2 of you in MD next year! :-D

These pictures: Durriah and Mr. Pang! Heheh. Look at his face expressions!

Alligator Sky

2011-10-28T13:16:00.002+08:00

Hello. I'm back from Hiatus. :-)

6 more papers to go and then pure and exciting freedom!

Actually, I want to share something. I'm not sure about what I feel right now but I know I'm happy and shed tears of joy at the same time.

First of all, I'm attached - in other words I'm in a relationship even though my relationship status on Facebook is single. I've been attached for 4 months. I know it's only 4 months but we have been through a lot.

Well. I don't know what to say actually but I love you and you know who you are, Al. :-)

Tell Me The Truth

2011-09-13T15:11:00.001+08:00

"People change, memories don't."

Yeap. That's true. There are so many things I wish I will forget but it's not easy especially bitter memories. I admit that I am not entirely honest about who I am sometimes. I am not saying I'm fake. I'm original to everyone but it's just that you cannot share every single detail about you to your close friends and certain people.

This morning, our teacher shared us a story about her life experience. I take her story as motivation and also to be a careful person. I'm not saying I'm careless but it's just that you can't just trust someone 100%.

I have so many friends. So many. I don't really want to talk about this. I'm alright. I learned a lot today and thanks to my teacher for sharing it. :-)

Love the new page of blogging. It looks really good. I borrowed Adrenaline by Jeff Abbott and Lucy In The Sky from my friends. Most of my friends know I like to read sci-fic and thriller books. I don't really go for romance novel but I love The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks. That book is really a page-turner. I'm planning to finish Adrenaline and Lucy in The Sky a.s.a.p!

I love Forever 21. I wish for Forever 21 to be opened in Brunei. My friend said I'm predictable. Yes, you can predict me sometimes. Not always. I am unpredictable. Trust me unless you live under the same roof as mine then you can predict me. :-P

O-level exam is just around the corner and I'm not that well-prepared. I really want to get (insert a number)As. If you're my close friends, you'll know which subject that I work very hard to get A*. So far, I think I only told one person about it. You can ask me personally though and don't ask me about it on my Formspring. :-P

Actually, I don't know what I really want to have. I mean, I want an iPad and I had told my parents about it. I want to buy this watch so badly and I told Fatimah about it. She said that watch cost a fortune but I really want it and Fatimah said it's worth buying but... It'll cost me a fortune. I want to go to Singapore or K.L and I haven't tell anyone about this but... I just did. Lol. I want jeans from Forever 21. I want to spend my December with my lovely ones but honestly, I want to spend it with someone. Lol. Okay, don't ask me about this in school. :-P

I had planned what I want to do in December, sleep, eat, internet, Tumblr! and hang out with my girls. :-D I just wanna have fun. Have fun and forget the world for a while. :-)

Liar

2011-09-08T14:48:00.002+08:00

Hi.

Today was alright. I'm quite happy even though I feel sad and angry inside but hey - everything went alright this morning with my friends. I love them. Thanks to Sasha, Fui Tze and Fatimah. Thank you for listening and thanks for being there for me. :-)

I went to check what grade did I get for PoA and English - I got B for PoA P2. :-( I could have done better than that. I know I can get more than a B. I want an A* and Fatimah will - never mind. Fatimah and I made a deal this morning in Biology lab. Lol. I had a great chat with her during MIB and also with Fui Tze after school hours. :-D

I want more books by Patricia Cornwell!!! I want!!! I want!!! D:

I think that's all. I just want to thank Alim for helping me last time. Thanks bro. You're the best!!! :-)

Dreams

2011-09-05T15:04:00.004+08:00

I'm chasing something impossible but I would like to prove it is not impossible. I'm waiting for something that I perfectly sure not coming. I keep quiet when I know I should have said it. I just stand there when I know I should have run. I just let the wind knocks me down when I know I should have fight back. When I see this particular person, the only word that crossed my mind is Special. This person is better than me. I never meet this person in real life but this person can get anyone's attention easily. It hurts me but I really don't know what to do. All I know is Keep Calm and Keep Quiet. That's what I always do. I feel like an idiot sometimes but I try not to show it. Maybe I am but maybe I am not. Everything happens for a reasons. It's just that sometimes, I don't see any reason why this thing happened in my life. I'm fighting with my own feelings. Trying to be positive but it's not easy as ABC. Even if one day, this thing will crash me down, I'll just accept it no matter how hard it is. I know I can go through without this another person.

Sometimes, I just need to forget about what I really want to say and move on to the next chapter of my life.

It's Too Early

2011-09-05T14:39:00.002+08:00

Hi readers!

I'm back. Yes, I'm back on track. I feel like blogging today. Zieda thought I deleted my blog and asked about it this morning. No, I didn't. I know I did mention I wanted to delete my blog but I changed my mind. This is my blog, whatever I typed down in here is my business. I know it sounds a bit bossy but hey, it happens most of the time where people always said "This is my blog, I typed whatever I want." So yeah, this is my blog. I don't really type everything down but at least I share something about my life and express what I feel and give my opinions about certain things. :-)

Today is the first day of school. I thought I came early but the class was nearly filled. Oh wow. I went to the staffroom to take my Statement of Results. Yes, it was alright. My PoA teacher was quite satisfied with my grade. Hehehe. I think so. He knows I didn't do well in paper 1. I detest paper 1 since last year. Given 4 options - A,B,C and D and in my point of view, all the four options are the right answers. Yes. I'm no good. Right now, I want to focus to improve my grades. I want to get A for PoA. Yes, I really want to because I'm going to take PoA again in sixth form. I don't think I'll take any science subjects because I know my weakness. :-)

Going back to school was great. Get to see your friends again and my least favourite person(s) as well. Hahaha. Just kidding. It doesn't matter anymore. Get to talk about this and that with my friends as well. This morning was alright. :-)

I think that's all. Bye. :-D

Zero Time For Me

2011-08-25T09:54:00.002+08:00

Hello! Credits to Tashya Nadia for drawing this cool stick girls using Paint. :-P

Look at me! My head is bigger than the rest of my friends but in reality my head is small. Lol. I've been trying to set this as my Avatar on Twitter but it's not working. It kept on telling me "...Bad Request." -_-

I went to see the dentist yesterday and I got 5 shots - you know the long and sharp needle and the doctor pressed it on my gums and ... I can't remember. My nose felt numb and my right cheek as well. Actually, I've got an additional tooth and that was why I went to see the dentist. The additional tooth is a premolar which is quite big. It hurts. Yes. I couldn't smile properly. I couldn't eat. I couldn't talk properly. It hurts but today I'm okay already. :-D

Any of you want to see my tooth? Hahahaha. June O-level results are out and my results was alright except for English which is quite alarming. :-)

Bye.

You Say

2011-08-20T12:56:00.002+08:00

Hello!

I changed my mind about deleting my blog. I'm not sure if it's a good news or bad news for you - readers. For those you see this as bad news - maybe you should stop reading my blog but I know haters couldn't help feeling curious about my life. Oh well. 0:)

Last day was okay but I think at some point I really enjoyed my last day of school not because we have no lessons, not because of PoA but because of my two other friends. It's been a while since the last time we actually sit together and laughed together. Yes, I was really lame on that day because I was really excited playing with Aff's iPad. Yeap. Fatimah asked me to learn how to use it since I'm going to have it soon (Insya-Allah by December 2011). I was playing Sims 3 and I named my Sims - Chicken. Yeap. Cool name uh? I chose a very bad personality for my Sims. :-P My Sims personality equals to my personality as well. I just couldn't stop laughing playing with all the games and I really love the Riddles from Fatimah's iTouch. Lol. It was so so so funny. I really want to try out the Instagram but too bad, there wasn't any internet connections.

Oh, I was quite down for the past few days but I'm alright now. I'm happy? Yes. Happy. I don't think I want to type down why. :-P

Alright. I think thats all. :-)

Now playing: You Say by Elliott Yamin

Note

2011-08-18T13:39:00.002+08:00

Hi guys. Actually I have nothing interesting to write. I just received a good news from my teacher but the happiness isn't palpable enough. I don't care if there's a lot of grammar errors in this post or wrong spelling.

I just want to say. This will be my last post and I won't do any posting anymore. I'm planning to delete this blog. Well, it's just my planning. I don't think I can express what I feel inside in here anymore. The more I express, the worst my situation will be and I always thought someone or anyone will help me to stand up but it seems like the opposite way.

I think it's time for me to go.

Tumblr Addict

2011-08-12T13:42:00.001+08:00

Hi.

I just changed my blog URL for Tumblr, it's no longer syazoom.tumblr.com but lightblueowl.tumblr.com. Feel free to follow me and I always follow back! :-)

Alright, I have to go now.

Skyscraper

2011-08-08T15:25:00.002+08:00

Hi.

Maybe I'm unhappy right now. Last night was horrible. I learnt that I was so horrible. I felt like I'd been hit by a tornado, being washed by a huge wave that's impossible to avoid. I went outrage last night. A few people have seen me went outrage but last night was really horrible. I'm planning to move on. I really don't want to remember what has happened.

I learn to move on. I learn to think positive. I learn to be strong but I haven't learn to control my emotions. Words are sharper than a knife. Yes. My words hurt someone else. I don't want to say further about what I feel right now. Whatever I feel right now, I just better keep it to myself. I still remember what was written on the whiteboard for me. "Smile even when you face a big problem." I'm not going to cry. I'll keep on smiling like there's nothing happened.

I'll keep on smiling. I'll stand still. I'll show the world that even a huge tornado cannot knocked me down. I'll rise. I'll be right here waiting for any response even if it takes forever. I know I can wait. I know I can.

Syaz can do it. :-)

Swimming

2011-08-04T15:54:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

I came to school as usual around 7. I didn't have anything before Chemistry and had a great chat and laughed with Fui Tze (Fizzy), Tash (Jah), Rai (Hermione) and also Sasha (Aeny). Lol. Today is Jang Keun Suk aka my imaginary boyfriend's 24th birthday! He's still young and very talented and such a qt. I love him since October 2010 until now. He's my favourite singer and actor and model. I still don't like the fact that I didn't meet him when I was in Seoul. :-(

Fui Tze and Sasha were singing and I would stop Fui Tze and request a song. Hahahaha. She's really good at singing but I cannot give her too much compliment or she'll be 'kambang.' Lol. She's one of the best persons I've ever known. Sometimes, she makes me angry but she really knows how to make people go crazy. Okay, back to my story about what happened in class. We were supposed to do our revisions but we didn't. We were talking instead! We talked about our favourite cartoons! I told them I used to love Ultraman and Fui Tze made fun of it. I think Tash said I have no life. Lol.

Yeap. I used to love Ultraman. I don't know why. Hehehe. We shared about who's our favourite characters and every cartoons came up. It was so funny!!! Singing and then talked about cartoons and about guys. Lol.

I had so much fun today and today is a very special day for me! :-D

Anyway, happy advance birthday to Mu'izz Khalid. I love you. :-P

Ramadhan

2011-08-02T10:26:00.002+08:00

Assalamualaikum.

It's the first day of Ramadhan. It's a month that every Muslims in the world have been waiting and now we meet again. I feel so happy and thank Allah that I'm still in this world. I still have the chance to do fasting. I still have the chance to ask for forgiveness.

During this month, I want to try to change myself into a better person. Whatever is going to happen during this month, I know and I'm sure I'm being tested by Allah. I hope I can get through all the tests. Amin.

I think that's all

Selamat Menunaikan Ibadah Puasa.

:-)

A New One

2011-08-01T13:01:00.002+08:00

Hi readers.

Zieda. Yes. She said "Batah sudah aku inda cakap sama kau." We hardly talk to each other due to exam. We hardly meet each other except in the hall and all I can do is wishing my friends "good luck." It's in the hall, we can't just talk loudly. I miss talking to my friends. I miss gossiping with them. :-P

Oh yeah. I'm not sure if she's going to read this but if she's a loyal reader, I think she'll read. This time, it's all about a girl named A____. I never meet her before. Never talk or text or communicate with her before... until today. Today is the first time I talked to her. All we did is flooding someone's status with our comments. :-P

One thing I know about her before I talked to her was she's loud in class. After knowing her, she can be in our class. LOL. I'm serious. She's funny and crazy? :-P

Alright! :-)

Am I That Hopeless?

2011-07-30T16:00:00.002+08:00

I don't want to talk about this but I have to. It's about someone I knew. I knew. I no longer know who he is now. I knew him last year. He's not my best friend but he's a great friend. When I first met him, I detest him but one day, he helped me. He helped me to see that it's not the end of the world that he knows I can do better than this. He even offered some help. So I followed all his tips and advices. Everything changed from that day on, I like him but I know where is my limit. I respect him. I improved myself. When someone knocked me down very hard, I told him. He listened and he adviced me not to think too much about it and just move on. I learnt a lot from him. I learn to be patient. I learn to be independent. I learn to move on. I learn to let things go and don't think much about it. I just learned a lot and I feel better knowing him.

BUT...

Things change this year. I feel like I don't him at all. I feel like every happiness that I feel when he's around is dissolved into the thin air. I feel hopeless at the same time. I feel like I cannot do my best even though I try my best already. I feel sad. I don't want to be called over-reacting but I'm sad. I'm sad. I feel really hopeless. I feel like I'm not even exist. I feel like I'm not your potential one already. Sometimes, I feel so stupid. I feel like I want to bang my head against the wall. I know I shouldn't act like this. I know you're not going to like it. I try my best you know. I really try my best to get a good result. I know I'm not that smart compared to your potential ones. I'm not comparing myself but I just want to motivate myself. You're still helping my friends but what about me? Am I that hopeless already?

I don't know what to say anymore. I really don't know how to express how and what I feel. Only Allah knows what and how bad I feel. I just want to thank you for everything. You're a great one. :-)

I Am Here By Myself

2011-07-30T15:38:00.002+08:00

Hi. Hi. Hi.

I just feel like blogging and now Cry by Mandy Moore is ON. I love this song. It's not like I'm crying right now. I just love her voice. I love this song very much. :-)

I had Chemistry paper 2 this morning. It was alright. I didn't sleep well the night before. We didn't sleep until it was really late. I think I sleep nearly at 1 in the morning and woke up again at 3. I only had less than 3 hours of sleep and I feel alright. Not really. I still feel sleepy but I don't want to go to sleep. I enjoyed myself last night. Someone sketched a smile on my face. That particular person was mad and insane last night. :-P

I'm going to sit for Malay paper 1. I still have no idea what I'm going to write. I was on Tumblr just now and I saw a Marauder Map. I don't even own any HP stuffs. I've got the patch. Yeah, it costs me $5. Hehehe. I wore it during HP day. I didn't see Fui Tze today and I didn't see Cheeng also. I miss both of them already. Hehehe. To Fui Tze, I'm not sad or maybe I am sad but I'll be fine. You said crying won't solve anything and smile even when I face a big problem. I seldom cry these days and I don't want to. I may look like a tough guy but I'm still a girl with a fragile heart. I miss talking to my friends. I feel like I have no time to talk to them. D:

He told me his friends are reading my blog. Oh dear... Hehehe.

I think that's all.

Happy reading!!!

5Y42

Deer in the Headlights

2011-07-22T08:30:00.002+08:00

Hi. Good morning. I haven't take my shower. LOL.

I'll take it after I'm done with this. Anyway, I'm still sick. I'm still coughing. My throat hurts and now my back is aching. I guess I slept in the wrong way last night. LOL. I'm serious. Tomorrow's paper is Biology 1 and I have to stay back in school because we have computer class which ends at 12.30. I hope I'm going to survive. I feel a lot better than yesterday. Thanks to actifed for doing your job very well. It made me fall asleep at millisecond. I gulped 2 tablets of actifed and a few minutes later 'ZzZzZzZ.' I had it again last night and fall asleep immediately. I didn't even realize about my alarm. I'm not sure whether I set it or not. Hopefully not because... Nyeh... It's quite privacy. :-P

I had my Malay 2 and Maths 2. Oh my God. Malay. I hope I'll get B for it. Amin. Maths, section B + runny nose + headache + the hall was cold = Disaster!!! D: I wanted to cry. I told my mom about it and she said if I get a B, she's okay with it. I want to take Maths in sixth form. They prefer to take students who got A1, A2 and B3 is acceptable. SIGH. :-(

Yesterday, I had fun with Fui Tze and Durr. We laughed so hard. Durr's face expressions was so funny. I wanted to laugh out loud but my throat hurts. D:

3rd

2011-07-18T16:18:00.002+08:00

Hi.

I don't know why I'm so happy today. I just can't stop smiling and laughing. My cheeks hurt from laughing and smiling for hours. I don't mind though because exam is just around the corner. I just want to be happy and happy everyday.

I sat beside Fui Tze today and I had a great time with her.

During break time, both Fatimah and Fui Tze laughed so hard because of my expressions. I told them I was so happy that tomorrow is my last day of fasting and I said 'yes... yes!' Fui Tze laughed so hard. LOL.

Alright.

Kolo Mee

2011-07-16T13:36:00.003+08:00

Hi. Picture of the day. 5Y42 without her glasses. Don't laugh. I know I look so different. :-P

Keun Suk

2011-07-01T09:05:00.005+08:00

Omg. Actually, this is the 3rd post of the day. The previous post was the 2nd post of the day. Oh my God, his killer smile is killing me. I fall for Jang Keun Suk last year in October and I love him so much and my parents know how much I like Jang Keun Suk. Call me crazy but I think I'm not the only one. I first saw him on tv during a commercial break. I first watched him in You're Beautiful. I couldn't help smiling and laughing and cried. Yes, I cried when I watched him cried in that drama.

The whole class knows I love Jang Keun Suk or JGS. I've got more than 50 pictures of him in my phone and my current wallpaper is Keun Suk. Do you see how much I love this man? Hahahaha. I'm a loyal and big fan of him. He is my source of happiness. Last time, when I'm so upset, I stared at his pictures, videos of him and it did cheer me up. I know it sounds crazy but that's the fact. :-)

I want to meet you someday.

Sincerely, biggest fan from Brunei! :-D

Drop It

2011-07-01T08:50:00.002+08:00

Hi again. I think this it the 3rd post of the day. I'm bored. I'm bored. More than bored actually. A woman from the population census or Banci Peduduk in Malay came just now. She asked me something and I didn't even know how to answer it. It was quite embarassing though.

The picture I just posted up is my Tumblr. Feel free to follow me on Tumblr. Thank you. :-)

Count On You

2011-07-01T06:11:00.002+08:00

Hi.

Below: Some part of the lyrics of Count On You.

"Now I'm about to give you my heart. But remember this one thing. I've never been in love before. So you gotta go easy on me."

"I heard love is dangerous. Once you fall you never get enough..."

"Don't hurt me. Desert me. Don't give up on me."

"I really hope you understand. That if you want to take my hand. You should put yours over my heart. I promise to be careful from the start."

Now playing: Count On You - Jordin Sparks ft. Big Time Rush.

I love this song. Check it out and I'm sure you'll love it too.

Thanks to Fatimah for this lovely song. :-)

I Give You What I Want To Give

2011-06-30T23:11:00.002+08:00

Hi.

It's late already. It's 11:13 P.M. Most of my friends are still on Twitter. Some of them had gone to bed at 9.

Hi Zieda! Thanks for reading my blog. Oh well, she's my loyal reader. :-P

It was pouring intermittently this morning and I saw Mr. Pang's car parked in front of the pick and drop zone. It was unlikely for him to park there and I went straight away to the staff room - searching for him. I was heading to his office but the room was dark and locked. I went up and down searching for him just to ask whether we have afternoon class or not. I gave up and I went to my class. I told Fui Tze and we went to his office. We went to check his office for only God knows how many times. The bell rang and we made our way to our classroom.

Despite the gloomy day, I couldn't help feeling so happy because we went to the reading room. I resumed reading The Lucky One. Oh my God, that book is really a good book! I'm almost done with it, just a few more pages. I give 9.9 out of 10 for that book! I really hope Lindy will enjoy reading that book since she wanted to borrow it. After that, we had Chemistry. I like Chemistry. I enjoy learning Chemistry despite how complicated it can be. During break time, my friends and I went to the staff room again. LOL. I just don't know how many time, I'd been to that place today. If that place has got a counter/hits just like my blog. I bet it would reach 315 hits. LOL.

The next subject was Biology. I just can't believe I've got 9 out 10. I know we did the exercise by referring from notes but STILL some of it, I used my brain. :-)

Oh finally, we had MIB! I love MIB class. My teacher always always always has something interesting to share with us. He's funny as well and the whole class will roar in laughter until you can feel hot tears ooze down from your eyes! :-P

GTG!

Say No More

2011-06-29T05:33:00.002+08:00

Hi. I don't want to go back to sleep. :-D

Actually... I want to express everything here.

I'm not sure if I'm disappointed or not. I'm not sure if I really care or not. I'm not sure if you are sincerely or not. Sometimes, I just can't believe and I really don't want to believe it because you are my friend. I know we're not that close but I just hate the fact you lie to me when it is clearly you are like 'that.' You think I don't know but I know. This is Syaz. Okay? You're dealing with Syaz. I know a lot about you but I just keep quiet because I don't want to hurt your feelings. Why? Because you're my friend. My friend. I never expect you to be like this. All this time... Until today, I pretend I don't know anything about you but actually I DO. I'm not fake but I call this grown up. I'm not being two-faced but I want to avoid misunderstanding here. I just want to say... Thanks for being my friend even though all this time I thought you're one of my real friends until at some point I know who you are. A reminder for you: Don't take things fro granted and I'm not your puppet or entertainer. I'm YOUR friend. I'm not sure if I'm going to call you my friend anymore. I just don't know. I hope I'll never ever meet someone like you but I'm sure you have your own reason(s) for doing so. :-)

Thats all. That's what I feel right now. What I think.

Alright. Oh yeah, I listen to this song so many times. I'm lovin' it. :-D

Who Do You Think You Are?

2011-06-20T20:07:00.002+08:00

Hi. I feel like updating my blog. I'll do my Biology later on. :-)

Today is the first day of school and I woke up early. Wait. No. Something dragged me out of my dreamless sleep and I decided to go on Twitter before going back to sleep. I saw a lot Bruneians still tweeting #OurBrunei. It was a great effort from all of us. :-)

So back to my first day of school story. I arrived in school early (always). I went straight to Fui Tze and we exchanged a few stories about what we did during school holidays. Then, I went to my seat and chatting with Fatimah. We were talking about this person and burst into laughter. I didn't know you read h__ blog. :-P

I was laughing so hard with Fatimah. I asked Fatimah whether she asked me anything on my Formspring or not and she said 'Yes' and she told me she used broken English and I was scanning through all the questions that had been sent to me. I just received her tweet, telling me - she asked me about the Angry Birds. LOL. She thought I owned any Apple electronics. No way I'll own any Apple stuffs unless I get a good results but it's alright, I'm aiming for HTC FLYER!!! WOHOO!!!

Oh yeah. Qualifying exam is on 21st of July. Yes. 21st of July. Hem...

Anyway, I think my previous post looks awkward with so many spaces between each sentences. I planned to delete it but I don't want. Why? Because of Owl City! :-D

To cap it all, I had fun in school. Back to normal routine. Consume unhealthy food. Sleep late and so on. Sigh.

I think thats all.

Good night. :-D

Owl City

2011-06-14T14:30:00.003+08:00

Hi. OMG. Owl City has recently released his new album! Check it out by clicking the picture above and I hope the link that I've just typed won't lead you to another place. :-D

I know the picture above looks awkward because I didn't use the Print Screen key but used other application. :-)

Anyway, I love Owl City to the core! :-)

Now Playing: Moving On - Elliott Yamin.

So Lazy

2011-06-14T14:07:00.002+08:00

Today I don't feel like doing anything.

I don't feel like spending my time on bed.

I don't feel like picking up my phone so just tweet me.

I feel like watching TV and listen to all Bruno Mars's songs.

Nothing at all.

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Okay. I'm pretty jobless right now. I'm too lazy to resume reading my The Lucky One and The Vanishing of Katharina Linden. I just want to relax my nearly whacked-off brain due to staying up late at night. Yes. I stay up late with my books. Storybooks anyway. :-P

Storybooks + A mug of hot coffee = Just the way #5Y42 relax. :-D

Okay. Bye. I know my post is boring to death. :-P

Price Tag

2011-06-14T13:56:00.001+08:00

iPad, Please Come To Me By December.

Someone Like You

2011-06-13T13:01:00.002+08:00

I really don't know what to say. I'll choose the right word in this post because I don't want to hurt you. I'm truly sorry but I think I've taken the right action which is being honest to you all the time. I know it's hard to trust someone but I'm telling you the truth. I'm not ready. I'm not sure when. I just don't like being forced. I know what I want. I know where I'm standing. I know my weakness.

You said sorry to me but it really hurts me. So don't be surprise if I'm gone.

Maybe I'm not the right person for you.

I hope you understand.

If you're going to hate me for all this, I'm OK with that.

I'm trying my best. I am trying but it seems like all my effort is not being appreciated.

:'-)

Yeah

2011-06-13T12:55:00.001+08:00

Now Playing: Rolling In The Deep - Adele.

Sneeze

2011-06-11T13:02:00.004+08:00

Hi reader(s). I just finished reading Secrets by yesterday afternoon while I was on my way to tuition class. Dad was driving at 80 KM/H. It was quite slow though and to my surprise I was the first one to arrive at tuition place and my teacher launched in straight with 'I thought you can't come every Friday.' And I was like 'Why? Last time, I got June, that's why.' LOLWSF. :-P

Back to Secrets, it's really a good book! It's about 2 girls names Treasure and India. Both of them have got a diary. I had a diary as well but most of my friends read it. The owl diary, I've posted the picture here. I don't really call it a diary since most of the entries are not really that personal. I don't really express what I feel on papers. Most of the time, I keep it to myself. Sometimes, it works. I mean, despite how angry or how upset I am, my face expressions is still :-).

I really love Secrets. I give 9.5 out 10! :-D

And now, I'm reading The Lucky One by Nicholas Sparks! :-)

Most of friends love all books written by him.

OMG. I love Sean Rumsey. I mean his voice just drives you to LaLa Land. Oh no. To #5Y42 Owl Land. :-P

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This is to one of the most special person in my life. I'm sorry to make you upset and make things between us cold. I'll make it warm. :-P

I'm too lazy to re-colour some of the texts. So Lazy. :-D

Forever

2011-06-09T23:24:00.003+08:00

My life is different from yesterday. 110% different.

I think my life will change. Sooner or later.

I can't stay this way forever.

Why?

Because sooner or later, I'll feel this.

But No. I feel it already. That feeling just done its job and settle within myself.

Oh God. I'm scared.

Really scared.

But all I can do is keep calm and move on.

:-)

iPad 2

2011-06-09T22:42:00.002+08:00

Hello! First of all, Happy 96th Birthday to Les Paul! I don't know who is he so I Google him (obviously) and he was an American jazz, country guitarist, songwriter and also inventor. Well, if you want to know more about him, just Google search. :-)

I've been playing with the thing in the picture above. Heheheh. I simply move the cursor up and down. Left and right and did 360 degree movement. Lol. It sounded quite bad. I wish there's a piano as well. :-D

I love piano because JGS knows how to play piano. I love you, Jang Keun Suk! :-D

Good night.

Secrets

2011-06-09T14:20:00.001+08:00

LOL! I forgot my password. :-P

I'm not sure if I can trust you or not.

I'm serious.

I miss 5Bs.

iPad

2011-06-07T22:52:00.002+08:00

Hello! 5Y42 IS HERE. Yeap! :-)

So, I went out with Fatimah today. We went to The Mall (obviously) but we didn't watch any movies plus I don't feel like watching any movies right now. I reached there quite early with my dad. Yes, my dad. He was waiting with me. He waited until Fatimah came. He's my bodyguard. :-D

We went to Knic Knacs first. I bought a new pencil case but I think I'm not going to use it in school. It's just a small and cute pencil case. I'll just use it for tuition because my current pencil case is too big and I have to shove it into my not-that-big tuition bag. I don't think I need to use a lot of things during tuition. All I need is a calculator, a ruler, an eraser, a pencil and a pen. :-)

Okay, back to my story. After that, I think we went to Shabby Chic. Then went down and then went to Euro Classic. Fatimah bought a nice ruler from there and also we bought a glowing animal bands. Lol. My glowing bands don't glows at all. Luckily, it's only 60 cents otherwise, I'll go outrage. :-P

I was so tired. No. Both of us were tired and had a break at KFC. :-D We went up again to Knic Knacs but before that we went to hunt for DVDs. I saw Mary, Marry Me. I wanted to buy but I changed my mind because I wanted to but Lie To Me. Okay, I wanted to buy season 1 but the price. Yes, the price made me confused. Season 3 of Lie To Me is cheaper than season 1 and I was like seriously? Lol.

Then we went back to AV Electronics. We went there before we hit Shabby Chic because my friend was looking for a new speakers. And we went there again but to play with the available iPad. Hahahaha. And I ended up with the picture above. :-P

I want an iPad. :-D

There's Nothing I Could Say Anymore

2011-06-05T23:49:00.003+08:00

Hello! First of all, Happy Holidays to all my friends especially 5Bs. Oh, the picture above was taken by me during Hari Raya celebration in school. That's my pretty girls, the one in pink is Lindy, beside Lindy is Shaf and next to her is Rai. The one in orange is my Amoi. :-P Well, her name is Fui Tze. I feel like doing some introduction about my classmates in here. LOL. Any way, the one in green is Aeny and next to her is Durriah. :-) I'm so going to miss my friends. Don't forget to check up for any recent updates via @MA5B_2011 :-D

So now, I want to talk about my birthday. So many birthday greets. Yes, on 31st of May 2011, from 12.00 A.M in the morning until nearly midnight the next day, I was showered with SO MANY LOVELY BIRTHDAY GREETS. THANK YOU. I LOVE ALL OF YOU! :-D

THANK YOU FOR ALL THE BIRTHDAY PRESENTS. THANK YOU. THANK YOU! :-)

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Actually, I just want to say how disappointed I am with you. Really disappointed. I don't know what to say anymore. :-(

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Today, for the first time since the first time I went there, one of my tuition friends talked to me! Well, when I first came there, the atmosphere was quite unwelcome... not until she smiled at me. I felt a bit better since the rest of them was so quiet and didn't even bother to smile. So sad. And today, the same girl but this time she talked to me. She called me Wana. Well, so awkward. I prefer Syaz. :-)

#5Y42

2011-05-30T19:40:00.002+08:00

Hi. Tomorrow is my birthday! My sweet 16th birthday and... Well... I'm not sure what's going to happen tomorrow. I just want to be happy. Just want to be happy. :-)

Anyway, today is Yazieda's 17th birthday and she wasn't feeling very well this morning. I know you're reading my blog and I just want to say get well soon and have a blast! :-D

Yeay. Everything went as planned. Thanks to my dad for paying for my stuffs. Thank you so much.

We received our IRK paper back and I just couldn't stop laughing with Durr, Fui Tze and our little princess called Cheeng. :-P Fui Tze, Cheeng and Durr. They didn't speak English with me but Economics and ended up burst into laughing. Why? Fui Tze was telling a story and she accidentally kicked Lindy because she was sitting on the floor, in front of Fui Tze's desk.

During break time, bumped into Chill and had a great chat with her. Hehehe. She's so funny when she starts talking about you-know-who. :-P

Thanks Ili for the advanced birthday gifts! :'-) I'm lovin' it, I swear! :-D

And thanks for the advanced birthday greetings I constantly received this morning. Thank you.

:-)

#16th5Y42

Stay The Night

2011-05-28T20:35:00.001+08:00

That was the 4th post and now it's the 5th post.

:-)

Too Many Choices

2011-05-28T20:29:00.001+08:00

Hi. I think this is the 3rd post of the day.

I just want all of my readers to know that I get excited every time I see '2 Muggles'. It means that 2 people viewing my blog at the same. I really want to see 3 to 9 Muggles in one time. :-)

James Blunt

2011-05-28T20:20:00.002+08:00

OMG. I love James Blunt. I love love love him to the core after I listened to I'll Be Your Man. It's playing on repeat. I just love his voice. I'll Be Your Man is really a soothing track. It makes me happy.

You can visit his official website and try listen to I'll Be Your Man. CLICK HERE.

Thanks to my special friend for this. <3

Oh Na Na

2011-05-28T19:08:00.002+08:00

I can find happiness on my own and not to forget when you're surrounded by people who care about you.

I'm not a baby.

I'm a girl who's growing up.

I'll Be Your Man

2011-05-28T18:49:00.002+08:00

Hi. Hey. Hello.

So, I burst into tears this morning. First, I talked to Fui Tze and I couldn't fight the weight of tears swimming in my eyes and I finally let it rolled down my cheek. I just can't stand it anymore. Really. I'm being weak girl here but a strong girl because I don't cry in front of you. I managed to smile despite how hard it is to smile like I used to but this morning was a bad and painful morning. I told Fatimah as well. She didn't say a lot but I know she understands me. I'm not going to quit just like that but I'm going to prove that I can do better without you. :-)

So happy to know my friend left a message on my tagboard. It's usually filled with strangers. :-(

Thanks Zieda. I didn't know you're reading my blog. To anyone or daily reader(s) (if I've got one), please left a message on my tagboard, you don't have to use real name, you can use 'Guest' or any name you want to use. Once again, thanks Zieda. :-)

Oh. I'm looking for a new phone which I'm PLANNING. JUST PLANNING. OK? Here's the link, CLICK ME. I want the orange version of that phone. Why? Oh well, I love the colour orange. That's my dream phone before HTC stole my heart but then, Nokia confiscated my heart back again. :-)

Now Playing: I'll Be Your Man - James Blunt.

P/s: I'm lovin' it. :-P

I listen to it for the... More than 5 times. :-P

Happy Advanced Birthday to my Granny. (29th May).

Happy Advanced 17th Birthday to Yazieda. (30th May).

Dear granny, I know you're not going to read this but I love you so much.

Caramel Macciato

2011-05-26T15:11:00.002+08:00

Hi. Just want to share with my readers that, the picture above is my favourite slipper. Daddy bought that for me because he knows I love Twitter to the core and he even bought me a t-shirt with Twitter printed on it. :-D

I want to have Caramel Macciato. Hem... This reminds me of Seoul. I somehow regret for not taking a lot of pictures. I should have snapped every angle of the city, the shops, the hotel, the food and so on. Well, I know that sounds desperate but hey, it's not easy to go back to that lovely country. One day, I'll get back to that place. Insya-Allah. :-)

Today,this morning, we didn't study during Biology but presented our works in front of our friends and teacher. I was quite nervous. My face felt hot but I decided to mask it by acting cool. :-P Tash told me not to be scared because I've done a presentation in front of international judges but I seriously don't know why - why I always feel scared... Not scared but... Nervous but at the same time I'm so excited. :-P

After Biology, we had MIB. I love MIB. Well, I was laughing so hard until tears oozed out from my eyes. My tummy was contracting and relaxing rapidly. LOL. My teacher is so funny. Everyone in my class roared in laughter. Seriously, you will laugh till you can hardly breathe. :-D

2 more papers left and then FREEDOM!!! God, I'm left with Computer and PoA P2. Pray for me to do well in PoA P2. Amin... :-)

Time flies so fast that I just realized... A few more days to go until my big day. Well, I must spend the remaining days of being a 15 year old girl wisely. :-P

To Fui Tze, you better buy something for me. :-P

Jang Keun Suk

2011-05-25T23:00:00.003+08:00

Cutest guy on Earth. I love you, Keun Suk oppa!

Currently, this is my Twitter's avatar and also my current wallpaper on my phone. :-)

Good night.

U Smile. I Smile

2011-05-22T18:59:00.004+08:00

Hi. I'm back. I just posted two pictures, above and below. The picture above is like my so-called diary where some of my classmates read it. I wrote about my feelings, what happened on that particular day. What event is going to happen in the nearest time. It's acts like a reminder. Non-digital one. :-P

Fui Tze and Fatimah, they always read this book than any of my friends. Some of them laughed reading my entries. Curious about what I've written in this book? Just come to my class. Hahaha. Just kidding. I won't show it to stranger. I panic if that book is out of my sight like seriously. Well, there's nothing important inside that book. It's not like I talk about who I like or anything. I jot down: when is next class afternoon class, when is this and when is that because I'm a C______ so I need to remember every single thing. :-P

He was in a good mood yesterday and he was so hyper. Lol. Funny thing was he forgot I had my exam on Friday. I was like "How could you forget a very important day?!" :-P

I had my Physics exam as well yesterday morning. Alhamdulillah, I could answer most of the questions. My teacher is going to give our papers back after June holidays. So long... :-(

What else? Oh, I received my Maths test paper. I got a B. My teacher said, I should get an A. I'll try my best in my next exam. :-D

Mister Donut. Oh, the picture above is my favourite. :B

Oh... 9 more days to go. :-D

49 Days

2011-05-12T23:16:00.000+08:00

Oh wait... One more thing. I clicked the Like button on One TV Asia Facebook and wrote "I love 49 days!" on the wall and when I logged into my Facebook, I saw 11 people Like my comments. Aww... It shows me that there's a lot of people around the world is on the same page as mine! :-D

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I don't need you to take care of me because I'm not a 5-year-old girl so get away from my life. Sorry to say this but I need time for myself.

Keep Quiet

2011-05-12T22:55:00.000+08:00

Hello! It's almost 11 but I have not sleep yet. I don't want to sleep. :-P

God, I've got PoA test on Saturday morning. Hem... I'm scared. I just want to get a good marks and that's it. I'm not in a good mood lately or should I say I'm quite upset. Yes, when I'm mad or upset or disappointed, I always keep quiet, quiet as in I don't talk much than usual. By doing this, it makes me calm and when I'm OK already, I'll start talking like there's no tomorrow. :-P

I had a great chat with Chill today. Aww... We're on the same boat. Thanks for listening. :-)

I thought my dad was going to come at 1.30 but he came quite early. Oh well, quite unpredictable sometimes. You know what? I love Oreo but someone... Well... Maybe he wanted to buy it for me but please... Don't waste your money. You and me can only be friends plus I don't want to have anyone special in my life except for Jang Keun Suk and my K-pop World. :-)

I'm happy with my life and I want to spend my days all to myself, my family and my friends. Not all my friends know me very well except for some people. Anyway, I don't feel like tweeting any more and I'm avoiding from signing into my account. Don't ask me why but seriously... I just don't feel comfortable any more. Expressing what you feel when 9:10 of my followers are strangers. -_-

I can be very angry with my friends as well. God, but I always try not to show it and put a smile instead. When I can control my anger, it makes me feel... Calm in a way that I don't know how to explain. :-)

I feel like creating a new one... Hem... I'll think about it. Right now, I feel like slapping someone with a broomstick! -_-

Eee... Don't be upset. It's just a test from God. Be patient. :-D

I LOVE JANG KEUN SUK. :-D

P/s: You + Me = JUST FRIENDS.

Judes

2011-04-30T21:21:00.003+08:00

I miss Judes. Lol.

Tash... Don't laugh when you see this but hit me with a broomstick to wake me up otherwise it will makes for mayhem at home/school/public places and even in your dream. LMAO. :-P

Harry Potter

2011-04-30T21:08:00.002+08:00

I LOVE HARRY POTTER.

P/S: CLICK HARRY POTTER.

To The Sky

2011-04-30T20:58:00.001+08:00

OWL.

Jar of Heartrs

2011-04-30T20:50:00.001+08:00

This Is Why I Prefer To Be Alone & Wait For The Right Time.

Just To See You Again

2011-04-30T20:20:00.002+08:00

I hope my mom is right about that thing. I hope. I don't want to go against my friend. I really don't want. Oh, I forgot to type Hi in first place. Hi again. This morning passed quite horribly slowly. Mr. Pang didn't come today, maybe he's not feeling very well. So, all I did was: doing my PoA homework, trying to use every cell in brain to get it (my Balance Sheet) balance and I got it in the end! Yeay!

Cheeng's sad. Her sadness is palpable. I hope you're okay Cheeng. :-)

Fui Tze wrote something on my Owl Book and I asked her if I could have a strip of her vintage-looking papers. She said 'OK'. Thanks Fui Tze! Anyway, I just can't stop humming this tune. LOL. I blame one of my classmates for introducing that song accidentally. But it's alright, I like that song to core.

I found his blog and I don't know if he even bothered to search my blog. I hope not. I was reading his entries and it seemed to me that he's looking for someone special aka a girlfriend. And I think he was talking about me in one of his entries. He's describing me... And... I think that's too much and I bet Fui Tze will ROFL. :-P

Now Playing: Jar of Hearts by Christina Perri.

Jang Keun Suk

2011-04-29T11:40:00.002+08:00

Anyway... It's tomorrow! Keun Suk oppa! Have fun in Hong Kong. I love you to the core... :-)

I was watching Giant, a Korean drama and I nearly... NEARLY cried. Hahahaha!

<3

You're Still A Stranger In My Eyes

2011-04-29T11:26:00.003+08:00

Nothing is broken. I just want to be your friend, not more than that. Sorry.

I'm not stupid, I know you're trying. I just don't want at this moment. I think you're just wasting your time.

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Hi. I didn't come to Padang Kebajikan yesterday because I'd got so many things to be done. I heard Amber won... Wow... Congrats Amber! Fui Tze tweet me yesterday, telling me that I'm a loser. Lol. Whatever Moi. :-P

Unfortunately, I didn't get to see A.P... Tsk... Tsk...

My dad and I went to Plaza Athirah and I was so excited because of Best Eastern. I bought a new book entitled The Vanishing of Katharina Linden.:-)

I was reading Cheeng's blog. Lol. She always has something to share with her readers. Seriously, sometimes I don't know what should I say because once I logged in, I forget what I want to say. Anyway, I love Tumblr and Twitter. I can't go on Twitter 24/7 now because I have no 'credit'. I'm left with $0.07! Lmao.

I got to go now... Oh... I cannot wait for HARRY POTTER PART 2!!! :-D

Bad Day

2011-04-10T20:45:00.002+08:00

You know... I love this song, Bad Day by Daniel Powter.

'Where is the moment we needed the most... You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost... "

"You're faking a smile with the coffee you go..."

"Because you had a bad day... You're taking one down... You sing a sad song just to turn it around"

& I had a bad day... :')

S

2011-04-09T22:39:00.002+08:00

I want this smart phone.

CLICK IT.

Creative

2011-04-09T22:33:00.002+08:00

Hi. Second post of the day.

I was reading Cheeng's blog and couldn't help myself but smiling and laughing at the same time reading her post. Yes, she's angry. But that part when she said she finds it funny that He have to tell me that Cheeng was smiling at him. Lol. I guess he just wanted to share with me how happy he is. :-)

I want to go to Shabby Chic now!!! :-D

Fui Tze... I can't believe you... Lol... Never mind. :-P

I LOVE BLOGGING

2011-04-09T21:58:00.002+08:00

Ha...Ha...I Love Blogging? Well, I Love Blogging But I Have No Time To Blog Everyday.

All I can say to is 'Keep Calm & Move On'. So many things happened recently. Bitter things, sweet things, sad things and happy things. First of all, I felt unhappy + happy this morning. Yes, I'm so disappointed with a friend of mine. We've known each other for more than a year but really! Someone please slap me with a broomstick! :@

I just can't help myself from burst into flames that cannot be extinguished. Well, sounds... Never mind. But seriously, you've known her for years! Like more than a year and you just leave her like that? I'm not saying you're not a good friend and I'm not saying I'm a good a friend to hear but please... You hurt her feelings. You think just because she smiles and laughs in class, she is ALRIGHT? For god's sake, she is NOT. I hate you, Moaning Myrtle. Such a F* I*!!! KNS!!! And please stop acting like... Hermione Granger. Okay? You're the root to every F* problem in... :@

And the whole morning passed slowly and painfully. -_-

I don't want to see your 'darkest' side. All of us are happy for who you are now. :-)

Sometimes, when you keep on thinking about that particular things, it will lead you to negative thoughts. And sometimes, that happened to me. All I want to think is about m education and I'm still confused or should I say I still have zero idea about what I want to be when I grow up. Someone thinks I should take Computer Accounting. The other one said, I should take Computer and this. The other side said the opposite things. This things almost whacked off my brain. I only have one brain, okay?

We went to the reading room last Thursday and I borrowed Lord of The Rings Part 1 because I remembered Rafsan the moment I saw that book! :-) Hi SAN.

I think that will do. Sorry.

Miami

2011-03-31T23:10:00.002+08:00

Hi. Second post of the day. I can't wait for my 16th birthday! :-D

I want flats from Salvatore Ferragamo and this particular flats costs 200+ pounds. :-( So expensive. I want more owl necklace and ring. If possible, I want an owl tee! Lol. I love owl! :-) I want mid-heels from Valentino as well. Lol. I'm craving too much.

Filled with sorrow.

2011-03-31T22:32:00.003+08:00

Hi. I've got something to talk about and to share with my readers out there.

Let's start with last Tuesday, the day before Tuesday which is Monday, I handed in my scrapbook entitled Pengurusan Stres & Konflik (How to manage stress and conflict) to my P.E teacher early in the morning. The next day (Tuesday), we had P.E lessons and my teacher was commenting about our scrapbooks. She called out my name and I was quite nervous. She asked me about my scrapbook. She thought I hired someone during school holidays to compile every information regarding stress and conflict and also to design my scrapbook. She said my scrapbook looks perfect. Well... I made it with my own hands before school holidays started. I enjoyed myself making it actually. I bought things from Shabby Chic, that's the answer to why my scrapbook looks perfectly done. Thanks to Shabby Chic. :-)

Same day but in the afternoon, we had Biology practical lessons, somehow I felt like I was attending a Potions class (if you read Harry Potter, you'll know) except my teacher isn't Snape. Lol. We were asked to cut the onion into half and I almost cried because of the onion. You know when you're like standing there for hours with onions, you'll feel like you're going to cry. Seriously but I need to do that. I need to practice myself.

The next day which is Wednesday, we had our first lesson with Mr. Pang. Lindy said something that made almost the whole class erupted in laughter including me. It was so funny and I'm not going to post it up here. I had fun that day! :-)

I think thats all. Good night. :-)

Mister Donut

2011-03-26T14:24:00.000+08:00

I miss Mister Donut! :-D

You Know.

2011-03-26T14:19:00.002+08:00

I'm now re-reading Harry Potter and The Half-Blood Prince.I read Love, Shelly by Kate Saksena before school holidays and it's really a good book! I'm bored and this is why I'm here. I just finished uploading the video. I really hope my classmates will like it since this time, it's fully edited. I love owls. I love and love and love owl! Yeah, that is my current addiction anyway.

I gtg.

:-)

Heart

2011-03-26T14:14:00.002+08:00

My previous post is really long. :-D

I love Jang Keun Suk.
I want - owl tee.
More papers from Echo Paper!

I want to eat Kolo Mee.

Bubble Tea.

2011-03-26T13:38:00.002+08:00

Hello!
"Bubble Tea" flashed into my mind a few seconds ago so I typed it down. Cheeng's got a T-shirt with 'Bubble Tea" written on it and I like it very much! :-D School is just around the corner. It's on Monday! Monday! -_- To be Honest, I can't wait to submit all my homework! Lol. I also cannot wait for December! :-D I was on Tumblr just now - reblogging every single thing that caught my eyes! :-) Anyway, I want an owl tee. Speaking about owl, scroll down my page and you'll find a brown owl hooting happily (:-P) on my Wish list. It means "I've been to that place or I've got it or yeah..."

I want to share my story with you guys. It's actually my composition. I find it childish but never mind... Happy reading!

"I just got back from South Korea and I was extremely tired after staying there for 12 days. I had my small test the next day and the night before, I slept late because I was preparing myself for the test on my bed. I did my revision until I had a headache and everything went black.

I felt my body was shaken but I ignored it. The shaking speed increased and my eyes flew opened all of a sudden. I could feel hard object on my nose and I could see everything clearly. I still had my glasses on! I saw my maid standing beside my bed. Her eyes fastened upon me, crossed arms her face was red. My books were higgledy-piggledy on the edge of my bed. My maid told me she had been trying to wake me up for what seemed like ages. I could feel there was an object in my hand, it was actually phone. I just remembered I kept on snoozing my alarm numerous times before. A picture of my small test timetable flashed into my head. I got up from my bed, ignoring my maid with her endless speech. I snatched my towel and strode to the toilet. After that, I dressed at top speed and went down to have my breakfast. While chewing my food, my eyes glued on the wall clock. 15 more minutes to go until 7 o'clock so I relaxed a bit.

I put on my shoes and started my journey to school on foot. I still felt sleepy. After more than 15 paces away from my house, I realized I didn't have my school bag with me. I panicked and rush back home. The gate of my house was closed and I started to punch the bell harder. After for like the umpteenth times punching the bell, my hands were red, my maid showed up on the doorstep. She opened the gate with a remote control in her hands and bombarded me with questions. I walked past her and took two steps at a time while climbing on the stairs. I snatched my bag and ran into the street. This time, my digital watch showed 7:15 A.M and the test started early this time at 7:20 A.M.

I ran as fast as possible and stopped every minute trying to draw air into my lungs. Then I continued my journey to school. My face was beaded with sweat. The school gate was about to close when the security saw me and let me in. I took a late slip and fortunately Mr. (insert name) wasn't there. If he was there, I'm sure I would been quarantined in the disipline room for hours. I strode to my classroom. My heart was pumping faster and faster. My watch was already 7:35 A.M. I saw Mr. (insert name) was the invigilator. When I entered the room, I expected the teacher to be angry."

That's the end of my composition. Just want to share it with you guys. :-)

Replay

2011-03-21T15:08:00.003+08:00

School holidays... :-)

I'm still waiting for e-mail(s) from my friends. Guys, if you happened to visit my blog, please reply my Tweets and my e-mails. Please. :-)

I went to school this morning. I just couldn't stop laughing because I sat next to Bell. LOL.

'She's so funny la. How ah? I'm hungry oledi ah.'

And I don't want to sit next to her tomorrow. Hahaha. You just can't help but burst into laugh and tears. :-P

I'm glad to know a lot of people like my first video and also received a lot of good comments.
Thank you everyone! :-D

Dear Judes, where have you been? I miss you a lot. Please reply my Tweets. Please. :-(

Love Potion

2011-03-21T14:53:00.001+08:00

I miss you, J.

You look perfect in Grey.

Pray

2011-03-15T22:54:00.002+08:00

Hello!

Quite busy these days. Yes, I keep on mentioning that in almost every posts.

My body is here in Brunei but my mind is still There. Lol. I know this is crazy but what to do? I miss that place a lot! :-)

Receiving each test papers these days. My marks, I think I need to work hard for the next test but I've got so many things to do. Even this coming up holidays, I need to prepare myself for a mini presentation in April. Pafft... My life is not a Teenage Dream... :-|

Okay. I GTG!

:-)

Still In Seoul

2011-03-05T17:59:00.018+08:00

Hello. Yes, still in Seoul fever. Both Tash and I are still in Seoul fever. Lol. I like the picture above. I just like it. I took it by myself after we had our lunch at this restaurant. I just remembered the name 'California' and I had Udong? I don't really remember the name. I ordered a baby-size Udong and I still couldn't finish it. That day, we had our lunch with my teachers, my teachers' team mates, our team mates, both groups' volunteers and Cikgu Nazhatul. :-) Great times.

The picture above snapped during our dinner party on the 25th. It's Mr. Jong Bum and volunteer, Kim. I miss her so much. :-)

Hahahaha! This picture is funny. From left: Cikgu Kairul, Mr. BK, Cikgu Mazlee and Mr. Jong Bum and Kim's hand. :-P

This is our team mates. Tae Woong oppa and Min Uk oppa. I miss both of you. Eric? Where are you? Reply my tweets as soon as possible! Hehehehe. Both of them is really awesome and funny. I still remember when Uk was trying to say something about waves. Only God knows how funny it is. Both Tash and I burst into laugh and I laughed till I could hardly breathe. It was really funny! Eric as well, I still remember chatting with him before I went to Seoul. He said something and I kept on laughing. Lol! I'm sure you don't remember what did you say, right? :-)

I finished this meal. Finally. Hahahaha.

Last view from my hotel room before I left my room for forever? Hahaha. Okay, that's so emotional. :-P

Eya... :-P

I'm just too happy to describe everything with words.

Sorry.

:-)

e-ICON

2011-03-03T18:40:00.006+08:00

Hello! I don't know where to start but I'm back safely. Back to Brunei. So the picture above is what I participated. We were in Seoul for almost 2 weeks. It was really a great experience. I made new friends and met a lot of new faces. 15 nations including Brunei, that was really unforgettable experience! I would like to share this with my friends and readers out there. Tash and I were matched with 2 Korean, Uk and Eric oppa! :-)

From left is: Me before our presentation! God, I was so so so nervous but at that time I was trying to mask it by taking pictures, smiling, laughing and anything to prevent me from shaking. Hahahaha. Next to me is... my friends' teacher, and then Tash and the next two girls are Malaysia's Korean partners (if I'm not mistaken). When I was on stage, perspiration oozed down and the hall wasn't that hot but I was sweating. I was standing behind the podium and I saw my friends and teacher from Thailand were waving at me (us). Thank you. :-D

I like this picture! Snapped just after our presentation. Whew... I think his name is Min Chan? Sorry, if it's wrong. Hehehehe. He's cool. B-)

For some reasons, I love this picture. Say yes, Tash?

I think that's all I can share with you guys. I'm now using my new wireless mouse. It feels... good. :-P

I'm having my monthly test and I'm here updating my blog.

Am I crazy or what?

The song Crush really define my current situation now.

I think I miss you, The Lock Guy, Yes, I locked all your pictures on my phone to prevent any strangers hijacking my phone from seeing it but end up unable to unlock it back! Ah... >.<

National Day

2011-02-23T20:01:00.003+08:00

Happy 27th National Day to my country, Brunei Darussalam.

Assalamualaikum.

:-)

LOL.

2011-02-23T19:56:00.002+08:00

I will only upload recent picture(s) on my blog. Not on Facebook. Twitter? Maybe... :-)

I love my hair in this picture. Hehehe.

COEX Hall

2011-02-23T19:51:00.004+08:00

I went to the powder room and I saw a very fantastic view so I took picture of it with my phone. The picture above is really really nice. I'm lovin' it.

HAHAHAHA! I find these 3 things are cool. Don't ask me why. :-P It's a box for recycled things.

Lomo Camera.

2011-02-23T19:41:00.002+08:00

I know there's a LOMO CAMERA on my Wishlist but... I want a DSLR right now since there's people out there who supports me. I mean, they said I can be a photographer. Eya... :-D

To Rafsan and his friend, maaf ya. :-)

I MISS EVERY SINGLE THING

2011-02-23T19:29:00.002+08:00

HELLO!

I just got back from COEX Hall, Seoul. We were watching teachers' presentation and every single piece of presentation is really good! Wow. It was a long journey going back to our hotel. I was sleeping in the bus. I was so tired but now I'm okay. Hehehehe.

Knowing my friends are reading my blog make me feel so happy. Thank you girls. I miss STPRI. I guess our 1st assessment timetable has already given out. I'm quite nervous. I really hope I can do very well in my exam. I miss Durr, God, I miss teasing her. I miss Fatimah. I always snatch her bottle and put it on Zieda's table. I miss A.P. Hahahaha! Booo! I miss AMOI. Really MOI, this girl from other countries, she looks like you but prettier than you. HAHAHAHA! Sasak? :-P Just kidding.

I found a shop sold so many albums. Wow... That was what came out from my mouth. I bought a magazine with a picture of JANG GEUN SUK at the front! HAHAHAHA! Shhh...

Actually, I miss my family more. This is my first time going to a very far country without my family. It's actually good but I just couldn't help crying because I miss them. I miss my siblings. My band of brothers! Take care boys! Kaka loves all of you! :-)

I was so down just now. Tash too. Hahahaha. Okay... When I saw Zieda and Durr on my chat box, I feel so energetic. Eya... :-P

Will update more... Just wait... <3

Lotte Young Plaza

2011-02-22T22:37:00.002+08:00

Hello!

We went to Lotte Young Plaza. You can Google the picture of it if you want to know how it looks like but believe me, you'll not be able to form words once you're inside that place. I was utterly excited and can't wait to sweep every shops. LOL.

Today is really a memorable day like seriously. I had fun with them. Them whom I share bitter and sweet moments. Tash is beside me right now and she's annoyed with me. Hahahahaha! But then she feels what I feel today. But... There is always a BUT in my life because Tash WANTS KIMCHI!!! LIKE SERIOUSLY!!! I FEEL LIKE HITTING HER WITH AN ORANGE BRICK. HAHAHAHAHA!

I love today. I love them. I love kong-ga-rish. LOL.

Tash is insane. She said that guy xi huan wo but I don't think so. Hahahahahahha.

Jedus is cute today because he's smiling. OKAY...

KIMCHI-FIED!!!!! :D -tash (FYI, IGNORE HER WHEN SHE'S BACK IN BRUNEI) HAHAHAHA!

S.E.O.U.L

2011-02-18T23:52:00.004+08:00

Hello again! On Sunday, we're going to Korean Folk Village. I think it's quite far from Seoul. But I'm sure I'll enjoy it! Learning other people's culture and language is one of my interests.

And Happy advanced 16th birthday to Fatimah! Sorry, I can't go and greet you directly this time but I hope you enjoy your birthday! :-D I miss YAZIEDA! SHE WAS NOT IN SCHOOL ON MY LAST DAY OF SCHOOL!!! HAHAHA. WHY ZIEDA? WHY? ANYWAY, THIS VOLUNTEER IS SO CUTE!!! :-D

MY KOREAN FRIENDS KEEP ON TEASING ABOUT JGS! HAHAHAH.

I BORROWED UK'S DSLR CAMERA AND I THINK I CAN BE A PHOTOGRAPHER! :-)

Brunei

2011-02-18T23:49:00.001+08:00

Anyway, I miss Brunei!

I miss my family, my friends and my teachers. I miss PoA. LOL!

S.E.O.U.L

2011-02-18T23:36:00.002+08:00

Annyonghaseyo! :-D

Hello everyone. The picture above is my latest picture. It's very late already but I want to share something on my blog. We have this Team Building with our Korean team mates and the help of our brothers and sisters or we called them Volunteers. They have been helping us a lot and funny. Really funny.

My Volunteer's name is Choi and some other random and friendly volunteer is Kim. My team mates are Eric and Uk. I like Uk because he is funny. (p/s: I like him as a friend). Uk has got a DSLR camera and I snapped a lot of pictures of him and some people asked me whether I like him or not and I said yes BUT as a friend! :-D

Anyway, we went out shopping just now and I saw Lomo camera but I didn't buy it though. Hahahaha. This is the only time I have and I need to spend it as wise as possible.

Okay. I think that's all.

Good night!

Our Bruneian teachers are awesome! :-)

Oh, chakaman! Uk obba is so nice and thanks for being part of us even though it's only for a while.

S.E.O.U.L

2011-02-17T18:25:00.002+08:00

HELLO GUYS!

I'M IN SEOUL, SOUTH KOREA WITH TASHYA AND OUR BELOVED TEACHERS!

SEOUL IS SO SO SO AWESOME. I CAN'T STAY LONG NOW. I'VE GOT WORKS TO DO!

I MISS 5B AND A.P! :-P

I MISS CIKGU HALIMAH BUT I MISS MY FAMILY AND FRIENDS MORE.

ANYWAY, HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY TO FATIMAH.

BYE.

Bye

2011-02-08T04:53:00.002+08:00

1 more week to go and I'll be in total hiatus for a month.

I'll miss everything.

I haven't finish my PoA. Sigh. I'm not going to take it after Form 5.

I'm going to take Physics in sixth form.

I'm looking forward for this Thursday.

2011-02-06T15:32:00.002+08:00

Seriously, I am so tired that I don't even have the time to watch Tv anymore. After school hours, boot up the computer and glued my two big dark-brown eyes on the screen. Then, I do my homework and resume staring at the Computer screen. This is absurd but what can I say? Life as a Form 5 student is really unexpected. This is not a Teenage Dream (Duh...) Hehehe.

I just finished my editing my DFD, my Proposed Solutions and now I need to do my System Flowchart. -_-

Keep Calm

2011-02-06T15:01:00.003+08:00

Hello!

I'm so happy we could finish our mini project within few minutes. Lol. Due date for that project: 5th February which is yesterday at 1 P.M and the project was submitted exactly at 1 P.M! Our group consists of 6 pupils and the group name is Fantasix. Combination of Fantastic and Six. :-)

We had PoA early in the morning, the class was dull and gloomy and quiet. No FuiTze and Lindy. After PoA, we had IRK and then Computer and lastly Physics. I had fun during Computer, Tash and I kept on laughing while trying to match those words according to the shapes. It's all about system flowchart. If you take Computer, you'll know.

In the afternoon, I was doing my Computer coursework in the ICT lab. Some part of the coursework is quite confusing. Sigh.

One more thing before I go, Happy Chinese New Year.

P/s: Today is Mr. ____'s Birthday. :-P

By the way, I joined Book Club. :-D

I GTG NOW.

February

2011-01-25T21:56:00.002+08:00

Hello.

I'm going to hit the sack just after I finish expressing everything in here.

So many bitter things happened these days. Well... first of all, let me start with my morning activities.

We had Physics early in the morning in the classroom instead of lab because apparently the the doors are being unhinged. What I meant was, there are workers who are fixing our school lab's doors. And then we had Malay. I don't want to say anything about it. Break time, I went to the staffroom to ask my computer teacher regarding June O-level. I wanted to take Computer but since we have not done some of the topics and it takes time to learn it and I have no more free time unless I don't sleep maybe I have another hours to do my work. Lol. That's insane. Oh yeah, why did YOU say it out loud? I don't want so many people to know, okay? Like seriously, that kind of stuffs will spread within seconds, faster than germs. Seriously... -_-

Oh yeah, one more thing, stop acting like an innocent girl while you're not. God, I can't stand it. Seriously. Well, just after I've taken my ______. You can easily gossiping about me with your two other friends. Have fun... Oh well... Maybe you can talk shit about me and trying to make it as though I'm a pain in the ass. Yes, I can be a pain in someone's ass but you're more than that. You're a pain in every one's ass. Lol. Okay, I really don't want to talk to you. Why? Because you're a... I think you know what's your current nickname, right? If you don't... just go and buy a dictionary.

Good night. :-D

Sexy Isn't My Name

2011-01-20T19:46:00.003+08:00

Hello.

We had a motivational talk in the auditorium, the speaker was Cikgu Ali Yusri. I always listen to his motivational talk within minutes every mornings. I like him. He's a good and has a very great sense of humors. Every words that came out of his mouth seeped into my blood especially when he talked about 'Mother.' Yes, that is a very sensitive issue for me. I mean, a mother who smiles even though she's hurt. She always does her best to mask her sad face. I know. Sometimes, I don't dare to disobey her even without being sighted by her but God knows.

I always run into this girl in my school. We used to be a good friend but not anymore. I think you know who you are. I barely talk to you or don't even say a word to you. I'm still mad and upset and very angry with you. Bitter avalanche of last year... creep into my head. I just... need time for myself. Maybe the two of my friends are okay with you but I'm not. You'd reached my patience limits and I can't stand with you and I'm confident to say you don't like me as well. The pain is still there. I can't stand it. I was crying so hard last year when I saw both of my friends were having a great time with you. They seem to get along very well with you. I don't mind but I feel like I'm being left out. We used to hang out together but when there's something happened, you guys just left me like that. That things happens all over again this year. When you guys need my help, I'll always try my best to help you even though I know my brain isn't Google.

But... None of you even ask me 'why.'

I guess that's all.

Peace.

If you're reading this... It's up to you the three of you to decide. I've been patient for a long time. I know I'm just a passer by.

Good Bye.

Maka Jadilah...

2011-01-19T15:28:00.002+08:00

hello. second post of the day. i had fun with Yazieda and Nadzatul this morning. we kept on laughing and laughing. one thing i always do is - interrupt Yazieda while she's talking to Nadzatul. hahahaha. i know it's not nice but that's like a routine already. we learn 'menukarkan ayat klasik ke moden' this morning and every classic sentence will start with 'maka' in front. Zieda and me kept on laughing during Malay. i don't know how to explain (i'm not really good at explaining.) lol.

i'm going to miss both of them and the other when... well... you'll know about it. you will...

-.-

2011-01-19T15:10:00.003+08:00

hello. Assalamualaikum. hey.

school has been... i don't know how to say it but it keeps me busy all the time since first week of January. i always come late to school than usual. last year, i always came before 7 but this year i always set foot in my class after 7.15 a.m. i feel sad and miserable. sometimes i don't know what is going. i don't even know about the broomsticks had been bought. i don't know. so sad.

another miserable thing was: i received my Biology practical paper yesterday. my marks is so horrible. i was trying to mask my upset face by laughing along with my friends but inside i felt like crying so hard. even though Teacher Fairuz smiled at me but still... i'm so sad. really sad and i kept on reminding myself 'keep going... move on... it's not the end of the world...'

so many things to do, yeah i keep on repeating that sentence.

oh. i think that's all.

good bye.

Gomawo

2011-01-08T17:11:00.003+08:00

Thanks To This Cute Guy.

I know you'll find it absurd but his smile brighten my day and thanks to Aff for letting me cut out a pic of JGS from her magazine. Dude, have in there and don't forget to snap a picture with a tiger! (:

Fair

2011-01-08T17:00:00.002+08:00

Hello. Good Afternoon. Finally, for the first time I'm able to update my blog. I'm quite busy these days. So, Jang Geun Suk had taken a flight to Thailand, have fun Sukkie Oppa. (:

My dad arrived quite early today otherwise I would be able to tell Fui Tze everything. Everything, what I feel, how some people treat me so ... I don't know how to see. I don't seek for your attention, I only want you to appreciate me like you did to others. Sigh... Okay... stop till that. I don't to blog about people who ... to me. -_- But thanks to Fui Tze. (:

I don't think I'm going to update my blog next few months. I've got so many homeworks waiting on my desk. So, I think thats all.

p/s: thanks to that someone. :D

Zumreed

2010-12-27T10:18:00.002+08:00

hello. this my second. the picture above is my new headphones. :D

it's ZHP-008. i actually wanted to buy a Skullcandy but i can't find orange Skullcandy so i bought a Zumreed headphone instead.

if you want to know more about Zumreed's products, click here.

(:

No More

2010-12-27T10:11:00.003+08:00

hello. it's been a while. i just got back from my vacation. so far so good. oh, i'm mesmerize by the picture above. i love him so much. :-D

the picture above pretty much mirror my mood right now. i'm happy so far ever since i got back from my vacation. every time i check my Facebook, my face will break into a smile. (:

ah... really hope this kind of thing will prolong till ... i don't know.

(:

Tumblr.

2010-12-13T15:10:00.001+08:00

Just Keep Calm.

Pictures from previous post and my current post are taken from here.

Sometimes, I just don't get it.

2010-12-13T14:36:00.012+08:00

Hello. I'm hungry actually that is why I posted up pictures of mouth-watering food. Call me silly, this is my blog. I wish I could have all these foods for this whole month which will make me gains 3KGs every 5 hours. [hahaha. :p]

I think this is coffee-flavored ice-cream.

The picture above are all caramel-flavored ice-cream. [hahaha. just assume they're all caramel]. Why? Because I love caramel so much!

Chocolate shake with vanilla and choco balls as the toppings.

\m/

This kind of cropped-jacket is what I've been looking for. D:

I want these too!

Feel It

2010-12-12T16:49:00.001+08:00

There are things that better left unsaid.

Small Black Bag

2010-12-09T13:41:00.002+08:00

Last post for today.

Bye.